Rachel
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I pulled a card for you — The Magician — and I always prefer Carl Jung’s take on the tarot. He saw the Magician as the conscious self waking up. The part of us that realizes we’re not just victims of circumstance — we have some say in how we respond and what we create next.
Even though you feel lonely and dismissed right now, you’re not asleep in your life. You’re aware. You’re questioning. You’re noticing what doesn’t feel good anymore. That awareness is part of becoming more fully yourself. It doesn’t erase the loneliness. But it does mean you’re in a phase of growth.
And growth hurts. They don’t call them growing pains for nothing!! But when you start shifting, when you start wanting something more aligned with who you want to be, it can feel like the ground is constantly moving underneath you.
But that doesn’t mean you’re going backward! It means you’re changing. Getting through it isn’t easy, especially when you don’t know how long this phase will last.
A big part of this journey is learning not to let this season of your life turn into a story that you’re unlovable or unworthy. It’s more about you noticing, “This hurts!” without turning it into a judgment about who you are. And I want you to remember, the fact that you care this much, that you’re thinking this deeply, that you’re willing to grow even when it’s uncomfortable??
That says more about your strength and self-love than you might realize at this stage. I think of it like this… when you’re climbing a mountain, you can be so focused on the next step that you don’t turn around to see how far you’ve already come.
That doesn’t mean you haven’t made any progress toward the top, it just means you’re still ascending. I’m really proud of the way you’re moving through this. It’s an honor to walk alongside you.
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I've pulled the 2 of Pentacles and I'm sitting with the idea of confidence and feeling worthy when it comes to romantic love.
The infinity loop around the coins makes me think about staying on your own path. Not chasing. Not shrinking. Not trying to get everything “right.”
You don’t have to be perfect.
You don’t have to look perfect.
You don’t have to say the perfect things.You are allowed to be human and still be wanted and loved.
This card feels like learning how to stand bravely in your own skin while things move around you.
Dating can definitely be like waves — excitement, nerves, hope, doubt, disappointment. That’s normal.
But you don’t have to get pulled under by the waves. So with this card we see that the ships behind him are being tossed about by big waves... But he is on the shore.
Yes the man is juggling, and when looking at the infinity symbol we see that it's likely something he'll be doing for a long time— BUT he’s upright. Balanced- even one one foot! He’s not scrambling or panicking. He's rolling with the ups and downs.
On the journey for romantic love this might look like:
You don’t shrink parts of yourself to make someone more comfortable.
You don’t rush to fill silence because you’re afraid it means something is wrong.
You don’t need to polish yourself into a “better” version to be worth choosing.You stay you.
And the biggest shift here is this:
When you put yourself in the driver’s seat instead of sitting on the curb waiting for someone to stop and pick you up, everything changes.
You’re not hoping to be chosen.
You’re deciding who you want to let into your life. Not the other way around.That’s a different posture in your body.
That’s a different tone in your voice.
That’s a different energy in how you show up.The 2 of Pentacles says you can handle this. Not because you’ll do it perfectly.
It's about learning how to trust your own value while still being open.
So in dating:
You choose whether to lean in again.
You choose whether to slow it down.
You choose whether this feels like something worth your time.Not based on whether they approve of/want you — but based on whether you feel good being yourself around them.
And if someone pulls back or it doesn’t move forward, that’s not you being rejected.
It’s part of you sorting through the "not for me" pile.
Not every connection is meant to continue — and that’s you choosing, too.
That’s what moving into the driver’s seat really looks like.
You’re not waiting to be picked.
You’re deciding who feels right, and good enough for you to invite further into your life.
💕🤗
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Rachel,
I pulled The Tower for you this week.
There’s a lot inside this card. It has a reputation for being scary. And yes, it carries intensity. But it’s the kind of intensity that comes when something false can’t keep standing anymore — and something truer is ready to come forward.
The Tower is about sudden realization. The moment something becomes clear and you can’t unsee it. Not chaos for the sake of chaos. More like clarity that interrupts and says, look at this. It’s the breakdown of illusion.
A belief you’ve held. A role you’ve played. A story about what you’re responsible for. Sometimes we build these structures to stay connected or to stay safe. They made sense. They helped you survive. There’s nothing wrong with that.
But over time, they can start to cost more than they give.
This card suggests something in your inner architecture is shifting.
An ego structure collapsing doesn’t mean you’re losing yourself. It means a version of you that felt responsible for holding everything together, keeping the peace, or carrying more than your share might not be needed in the same way anymore.
That can feel scary. Even unstable structures feel familiar. Even exhausting roles can feel safer than the unknown. Unexpected change with The Tower often begins inside. A new boundary forming. A new truth surfacing. A moment where you quietly think, I can’t keep doing it this way.
That’s not impulsive. That’s growth reaching a threshold. And this part matters: it’s not random destruction.
Whatever falls was already unstable.
Whatever cracks could not hold long term.
The Tower is disruption, yes. But it’s also liberation through disruption!
It clears what isn’t aligned so something more honest can stand.
For you, I don’t see this as something being taken from you. I see it as something being revealed to you. And even when that feels intense, it’s still a kind of care.
Stay close to yourself. You don’t have to rush to rebuild. You don’t have to fix anything right away. Sometimes the most grounded thing we do is let truth rearrange us, slowly, in our own time. Intense, yes. But in a way that makes space for something more real and more supportive of who you’re becoming.
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Rachel,
I pulled the Knight of Pentacles for you this week.
This card is about steadiness. It is about slow, methodical progress. It is not dramatic energy. It is not a breakthrough card. It is the energy of showing up, doing what needs to be done, and staying consistent even when it feels repetitive.
The Knight of Pentacles represents reliability and responsibility. It is the person who follows through. The one who keeps going. The one who is willing to do the unglamorous parts because they understand that long-term stability is built through small, steady effort.
It is also about taking practical steps instead of big leaps. Routine. Planning. One manageable action at a time.
For you, this feels deeply aligned.
The work we are doing right now is not flashy. It is not fast. It is the “grunt work” of noticing your breath. Catching the inner tone. Saying, “We’re not doing this.” Putting your hand on your belly again and again.
That is Knight of Pentacles energy.
This card is a reminder that you do not need intensity to make progress. You need consistency. You need patience. You need to stay the course even when it feels small.
You are building something stable inside yourself.
And slow does not mean stuck.
It means steady.
— T😊💕
Rachel’s Tarot Readings
RECORDINGS
February 2026
January 2026
We're starting slow with intention.
Your body has been under a lot of pressure for a long time, because you’ve been living in situations where you have to stay alert, careful, and responsive almost all the time.
So for now, we’re not trying to fix anything.
We’re just giving your system fewer moments where it has to keep carrying so much.
One Small Reflection
(Once a day. Pick a low-stakes moment. Not at night.)
When you notice yourself going over something again —
a conversation, a disappointment, a hope that someone will finally show up differently, pause for a second.
Say or write one sentence:
“This is what they can give.”
or“This is the limit I’m dealing with.”
That’s it.
You’re not telling yourself to like it.
You’re not trying to accept it.
You’re just naming what’s true so your body doesn’t have to keep arguing with reality.
That alone saves energy.
One Physical Reminder
(For moments at home when your body tightens or you feel on edge.)
If you notice your body getting sharp or tense:
put your feet on the floor
let your back be supported
Then choose one of these in the moment that feels the most natural:
Rest your fingers lightly on your collarbones
take a few slow breaths inhale through the nose and exhale through the mouth like you're blowing out a candle.
Either of these practices gives your body a physical cue that says:
“I don’t have to engage right now.”
That’s all I want you to focus on this week.
Just small moments where your body gets a little less pressure.
Reach out in the chat/discussion if you have questions!
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Hi Rachel,
Here is one way to think about confidence:
it grows out of the story we’re telling ourselves about who we are.
We look back at what’s happened in our life and make sense of it.
We look ahead and imagine how things might go.
We add in our hopes, disappointments, dreams, and longings.Over time, all of that turns into a story about you.
And confidence tends to follow that story.
What matters here, Rachel, is not whether the story is “right” or “wrong.”
It’s that the story can start to feel very solid, very convincing,
especially when it’s been reinforced over years.This is why confidence can feel fragile even when you’re doing so many things right.
It’s not because you’re lacking anything.
It’s because the story has been running for a long time.The work we’re doing together helps in a specific way.
It gives you moments where you’re not reviewing the past
and not rehearsing the future.
You’re just with yourself as you are, without adding another chapter.When that happens, even briefly,
your confidence doesn’t have to be earned or proved.
It’s already there, underneath the story.Over time, spending more moments like that changes how much power the story has.
Not by arguing with it.
Not by replacing it with a better one.But by reminding your system that you are more than the story you’ve been carrying.
That’s the kind of confidence we’re strengthening here.😊🙏
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Turn one hand up toward the ceiling. Let your palm open, wrist face up.
With the other hand, place two fingers flat on the inner wrist.
Measure about two finger-widths down from the crease where your palm meets your wrist. Rest your fingers there.
Take a few breaths: inhale through the nose- exhale through the mouth (try to make your exhale longer than your inhale)
PRACTICES + RESOURCES
PRACTICES
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This Yoga Nidra might feel different from what you expect.
That’s on purpose.A lot of traditional practices assume it’s safe to relax, let go, or drift inward.
Your nervous system hasn’t had that luxury for a long time.So we’re not asking it to drop its guard.
We’re not asking you to calm down.
We’re not trying to make anything go away.This practice is about giving your body a few minutes where it doesn’t have to stay on watch.
We focus on the belly because this is one of the places the body carries long-term tension when life feels emotionally charged or unpredictable.
When this area stays activated all the time, it’s hard to feel safe anywhere—inside or out.Nothing needs to change there.
You might feel sensation.
You might feel very little.
Both make sense when a part of the body has been working this hard for this long.Your mind might stay busy.
The edge might come back quickly afterward.That doesn’t mean it didn’t work.
The point isn’t how you feel at the end.
The point is that your body gets a reference point—
a reminder that it doesn’t have to carry everything, every minute of the day.You don’t need to do this perfectly.
You don’t need to feel better afterward.Showing up for it counts.
Insight Timer Practices
RESOURCES
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The Five Koshas — A Simple Way to Understand Yourself
In yoga philosophy, you are not only a body or a mind.
You are layered.The ancient texts describe five layers of human experience. These are called the koshas. Think of them as different aspects of you that work together.
1. Annamaya Kosha — The Physical Body
This is your body made of food. Your muscles. Bones. Organs. Skin.
It is the most visible and tangible layer.This is where we begin.
Because safety starts here.If your body does not feel supported, grounded, and steady, it is very hard to explore the deeper layers. If your body does not feel supported and respected, it is very hard to explore the deeper layers. So we start by paying attention to how you live in your body. How you speak to it. How you respond to its signals.
From there, everything else becomes more possible.
2. Pranamaya Kosha — The Energy Body
This is your breath and life force.
It shows up as your energy level, your nervous system state, your sense of vitality.When you shift your breath, you shift this layer.
3. Manomaya Kosha — The Mental and Emotional Layer
This includes your thoughts, feelings, and sensory processing.
It is where stories form. Where reactions happen.Many people try to start here. But without physical safety, this layer can feel overwhelming.
4. Vijnanamaya Kosha — The Inner Knowing Layer
This is discernment.
Your deeper wisdom.
The part of you that can notice your thoughts instead of being run by them.This develops slowly. It grows from steadiness.
5. Anandamaya Kosha — The Layer of Deep Ease
This is not constant happiness.
It is a quiet sense of connection.
Moments where you feel whole, even if nothing outside has changed.
